A bump under the skin, he hasn't arrived yet but he's already changed your entire life. Now you'll have nickname that will stick. Now you're going to be working 24 hours a day, everyday even on holidays, for the next 18 years (minimum). Now you're the boss, and you help form this next life. 

You'll want him to be good, and listen. To continue living on your name, and become greater than you. Can you believe you've created a life? Can you believe that life has all the potential in the world, at this moment in time? Oh why isn't he here yet? You want to meet him, to see his eyes, to hear his first cry, feel his strong grasp on your finger.

Mother, and father. Can you believe that's your names now? A small boy hugs your insides, listening to your heart beat, to your muffled voices, and already loves you. Soon he'll be here, listening to your voice, nuzzling you for milk, and your muffled heart beat.

"Pure." "Beautiful." "Perfect." they will all say, and it's true. Did you ever think you could make anything that so many people would be proud of and want to talk about? You must be glowing, and dad must be bragging.

You dream of his first day of school, while his dad dreams of catch in the yard.

Congratulations, you're a parent now, even though he's not here. You've already watched him grow, fed him, and protected him. At this moment, we may call you mommy-to-be, but you've been a mother all along.

Congratulations,

Ashley Christine.